"I'm not a child that you need to coddle," I say, with some humor. I am started to feel a little bit more myself, just from having them near, reminding me who I am now. I don't move, however, from John's embrace, and when Will is close enough, I reach out and take his hand, and give him a little smile that is only between the two of us, so he might remember that there is nobody here who requires any sort of formality.